BIG dilemna.

I couldn't get a job for the longest time,
and now have the opportunity for three lol.
Well, the flowershop is just this week.
I commited to Sapps for overnight.

But I went to get Chinese...
and Brian offered me a nanny job.
Four Days a week. While he is working.
Free apartment, free food, (free chinese food lol),
free utilities, free other things (you know, the things that come with homes)
And another one hundred dollars a week.



I was like
HOLY SHIT.

And I don't know what to do.
I kind of just want to do it.
Or at least ask if we could give it a try for a couple weeks.

Suggestions?

Holy Awesome

I found a new band.
It's a Catholic band,
but even if it was plain christian rock,
they would still be really awesome.
They make me so happy. lol
I hope they get more popular- they are so talented.
Holy cow.




www.thethirstingcatholic.com

check out some music^^^

Another Blog, More Important.

I started another blog here on Blogger,
it's for the charity my family and I do.
I am in charge of all internet things;
facebook, twitter, blog, email, and soon an independant webpage.
Check em out!

Blog:: spidiepokerrun.blogspot.com
Twitter:: @spidiepokerrun
Email:: poker-run@hotmail.com
Facebook Page Name: Spidie Poker Run.


Fan it. Watch it. Love it. :)

Don't know where to start...

I was in a terrible mood and decided I would post. Though, until now, it wouldn't let me log in. Maybe that was a sign lol.
Recentyl- I have been baptized and confirmed as a Catholic, which was very exciting. I'm very glad that I really belong now and can recieve the Sacraments in their fullest form. I have yet to do my first Confession, and I'm feeling a little sluggish in my soul, but it's not too bad. I cut down cursing a lot and smother my terrible thoughts. Really, havne't been doing bad. Just not good enough.
I plan on hopefully going to Metro for culinary arts. And also, will soon be contacting the Cathedral office to get into Catechist classes.
I want to teach children. I think that would be great.
Also, something much less long-term, I plan to go see the Vatican Treasures in St. Louis. It's art by Michelangelo, Bernini and a few others. I think it will be truly grand. Alex plans on going, and maybe we can schedule the same day. I think that would be very awesome, but, it's up to him. I've talked to him for five months now, but I don't want him to think I'm pushy. I really like him, what I know of him, and I don't want to scare him away lol.
A few days ago, he got into a car accident. It was raining, and his brakes failed and he ended up in a ditch. I'm very thankful to God that he was unharmed and is actually feeling very good; like he has a second chance. I would have been very sad if something were to happen- I wouldn't have been able to visit and death would have given me a heart attack. I know I haven't met the kid, but he means a lot to me. And him living is probably good for everyone. lol
I got a new camera recently and have been using it almost non-stop. I've found my favorite things to photograph are flowers, statues and churches. And people, but I don't have enough models.
I find it sad that I have all the time in the world and really no one to spend it with. The person I see most is Katelyn, who is darling, but that's once a week. If that. I feel super secluded from the rest of the world, like a cloistered sister. lol
I spend a majority of internet time on deviantart, and you're more that welcome to check it out. fricken-pimp.deviantart.com
But the rest of my time is spent at my grandmas or completely alone. I haven't been writing too much lately; it all seems like word-vomit. But I feel that I really have to get going on it again or I will go insane. It just needs to get done. I haven't been reading either, which is sad. lol But whatever. I'm doing a hardcore diet and have been walking everyday. I became completely full of hate for myself and I'm determined to not be this person anymore. I do about two miles a day, and I hope that with the diet, it will pay off. If all goes well, I can lose about 50 pounds by this time next year. I would love for it to be faster, but it really can't be and I guess I'm okay with that. Good things are always worth the wait.

I don't know. I've had a lot of disappointment over the last few months, but a lot of great things have happened too. I'm glad that God has blessed me with the good, and I'm even more thankful for the bad. I know that I complain about my pains and sufferings, but I know that they bring me closer to Christ. If He can suffer, who am I not to?

I am

going to go to school asap
and just disappear.